My eyes are watering and my stomach is all angry. It's not that I'm having trouble getting up. For the first time in a while, actually, I woke up immediately when my alarm went off... not just enough to hit snooze, but enough to know that I was actually going to get out of bed within the next ten minutes.

The paper is harder to write than I had thought it would be.

Brenden's other advice to me last night: when something hurts you, upsets you, and you don't like the way you act because of it, try to just ignore it. If you get mixed signals that you don't know what to do with, ignore them.

Is that really what I want to do? Is it even possible?

I don't think once a week is enough with the therapist.